Monday, August 15, 2011
Did I make the right choice?
We have 27 days until the half Rev at Cedar Point. More than one person has asked me if I'm happy with my decision to switch from the full to the half. Heck, I've asked myself if I'm happy that I switched many times over. And the answer is always the same.
Now I'd be lying if I said that I didn't feel like a bit of a failure at times. I started something and I'm not finishing it. And how much of a hypocrite am I for preaching that times will get tough but you can get through them to all of my friends that have been or are training for their first, second, tenth Ironman? I know all about the peaks and valleys, the walls that need to be overcome. It's probably 75% mental. I know first hand how hard Ironman training can be and that yes, sacrifices need to be made, times will be tough, but in the end, there's no greater glory than crossing that finish line. It all comes together.
So how can I be happy with my decision?
I know that my heart wasn't in it, I wouldn't have been able to honestly give it everything it deserved. I have done the Ironman training and races three times now... I have a HUGE amount of respect for the distance - enough to know when I'd be foolish to half ass my way through it. I'm loving training right now. I still do long stuff - 40 miles of running planned this week, a 17 mile run last week that was by far the best run I've had in a loooong time, 85 miles on the bike last Sunday, etc.. But I'm doing things on my time because I want to, not because I have to. I'm going into the half in better shape than I've ever been, and I know that my fitness will carry me to the finish line, and then to the finish line of the two marathons in the following 4 weeks, and then to the goofy in January.
And while I guess I could feel like a schmuck for telling people not to give up when the going gets tough, I feel like I've finally made a smart decision that will help me in the future.
I mean, Ironman Florida 2012 is already in my mind and I'm going to blow the socks off that race.