I went to PA to visit my grandparents this past weekend with my mom. It was a tough visit because they are changing so much, but we ended up having a good time. I'm super glad that we got to see them. They are moving this weekend from independent living to assisted living. We broke the news Saturday and they both took it surprisingly well. I think they know that they need the help. It's crazy how the circle of life works and my mom tells me that all the time. For so many years, my grandparents were caregivers to the family and now they are dependant on the kids and grand kids to take care of them.
We are so busy with planning a triathlon this weekend. It's an indoor tri for our local hospital that we raced (and won) last year. We had some suggestions on how to make the event better and ended up on the committee. It's been a lot of work. But, I get to race this weekend which is fun. I don't know how I'm feeling about it. It's a good race to see where I'm at since it's only 15 minutes of each discipline, but I kind of wish I was faster than I am right now. It'll be interesting to compare my stats from last year to this year.
It's baby central with my friends. Addi was born in February, Claire was born yesterday, Trisha is due with her second in a month and a half, Rhiannon is due in August. You would think that being surrounded by babies makes me want to start talking about my family. It doesn't... And I wish that some people could understand that. I feel like most people I'm around think that I'll be dying for a child soon and that's not the case. Sure it could change, but it very well might not. Is it a horrible thing to not picture a child in my life right now? I wish some people would try to accept my point of view and not be so judgemental. It makes me sad when I realize how different I am from some of my dearest friends. It seems that very few share my interest in triathlon and fitness which is fine, but I almost feel like I'm being judged because of it lately. I know what I do is crazy, love me for it. I'm happy that two friends are signing up for half marathons this year and I'm super excited for them. They are both going to do fabulous!
Training is going well. I about fell over when I looked at my schedule for the week and saw only one workout of an hour this week. The rest are 2-3 hours. I know that I'm "in season" but I guess it hasn't hit me. We're already talking about hotels for IM Louisville and when we want to try to get out there for some rides of the course. I know that it'll be here before I know it. :) I'm excited.
I had a good 8 mile run yesterday. Averaged 9:00's, but we didn't stop the clock when we stopped for cars and red lights which was a lot. Never again will we run at 6:30 at night either. SCARY! :)
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((HUGS)) I hope your friends can learn to accept you for who you are because who you are is pretty darn great! We have some friends who aren't interested in kids right now so they just spoil ours! While your life won't be overwhelmed with poopy diapers, spit-up and sleeping woes, I'm sure you'll be there to celebrate their children with them and love them all just the same.
(((hugs))). Sounds like we need to talk! Shoot man, if I had friends like yours who share the bad, the ugly and the raunchy, I would be eating a whole sh*t ton of BCPs. Oh wait, that would be me as one of them...
And BOO for those not understanding and cheering you on about what you're passionate about. It's what makes you happy. And that should be all that counts.
I envy your triathalon abilities. There is no way in this hot diggity dog world I'd ever think about doing it but your dedication is so admirable!
It is fine that we aren't ready for kids yet. You are only 30 years old and wise beyond your years for not rushing into anything.
I do think we should probably practice more in case we suddenly change our minds.
Love You!
Tom, read Colleen's texts :).
Running in the dark is kinda scary... but you get used to be.
sweetie, dont even WORRY about feeling like you need a child right now. your time will come. (that's what i keep telling myself about settling down with a man someday!)
when you set up your ncaa bracket, you better put Siena on there (if they win this weekend)!
LMAO @ Tom! Practicing is something LW would say!
Hey I do get the whole baby thing. While I wanted them and couldn't have them, I was surrounded by friends who were continually having them. The only advice I have is, find something other than kids in common with them. While my friends' kids are GREAT, I needed something else to talk about since I could never contribute (I can more so contribute now because of Kassidy though). It's hard to be accepted for who you are when you don't have children. I often got told I was being greedy for not having children. :-( Hang in there! I'm always here....kidless!
YAY for a half marathon. I can't wait.
Good luck this weekend! I can't wait to hear how you guys do. So proud of you and Tom.
hang in there. march is going to be a wild month indeed.
Um, Tom...GROSS! THAT'S MY SISTER YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT!!!!! Ha ha ha
Colleen, you know I'm here for you. I've been in your shoes and continue to be in your shoes. I know what it is like when your close and distant friends are moving "forward" in life, and your path is headed in a different direction (either by choice or not). I know how hard it is, how super super super super hard it is. But you have an INCREDIBLE husband and a passion for life right now. And that passion for life is something you need to enjoy and embrace. And whoever misses that passion or can't understand the current path that YOUR life is on right now is missing out.
Keep your head up, your beautiful smile on your face, and know that you are surrounded by people who love and support you.
Especially me.
I can TOTALLY understand your lack of desire to baby it up.. and I can also relate to watching the circle of life come full circle . . . with this past december & loosing my grandfather and having to watch him deteriorate in condition along the way.. it was VERY VERY hard. I'm glad your grandparents are taking the move to assisted living easier. just wanted to send you hugs.
you want the hyatt downtown. it's across the st from the finish line. that's where i am staying.
p.s. the hyatt is $$ and charges for internet and parking.
Well you have read my sad post on my own blog so you now I'm dealing with the same issue.
As for the baby thing...ditto on that topic too. I feel the same way and deal with the same guilt. No good advice other then you must continue to do what makes you and Tom happy.
((((HUGS))))
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