I keep telling myself that it must be summer. Between the sun burn, the kids screaming in the neighborhood, the ice cream man, the long workouts, the overall exhaustion, the lack of blogging, etc. I can tell it's summer! :)
I get this way every year. All of a sudden I look at my calendar and have an "Oh Shit!" moment. I had that this weekend. Where did the first 7 months of the year go and why is November coming so quickly???
And I wonder why I am freaking out!!!
We're finally in the groove of long training. Well, "in the groove" is kind of a loose translation of getting through the workouts for the time being. :) I know that it'll take some time to get adjusted to the long hours and overall pounding on my body, but I hate the self doubt that comes with that adjustment. Yesterday, during a 10 mile hot boring run, I broke down, cried to my wonderful training partner that I don't know why I do this and seriously wondered how I'll ever get to the start line in November. I know I can do it and I know why I do it, but at that exact minute, I questioned everything. I know this is all part of the journey, or at least I keep telling myself that it is and that I'll be alright, but it still makes things difficult.
Looking ahead, we have a lot going on. Tom's racing NYC and Chicago, we're both racing an OLY here in Ohio, 2 half IM's, 2 half marathons. We're heading to DC with the fam for a long weekend. Tom's speaking in Orlando and at a conference in Atlanta. We have century's planned, 20 milers scheduled, hell weekends already on the calendar. I talked to my mom the other day about a small one day trip that we're taking with my parents and I honestly said that one day would work better than the next because it's a rest day and that yes, my life does revolve around training now. Oye ve!
I'm seriously considering what the future holds for me in terms of racing and training. I don't think that another Ironman is in the cards for a while. Maybe it's short racing. Maybe it's not racing at all. I don't know. According to my hubby, I have to figure out where my heart is. Luckily I'm too busy right now to have time to make any decisions! :)